Generated by All in One SEO v5.0.0.1, this is an llms.txt file, used by LLMs to index the site. # Psyching Out Cancer STORIES AND PSYCHOLOGY TIPS FROM A CLINICAL PSYCHOLOGIST WITH MULTIPLE MYELOMA (BLOOD AND BONE CANCER). ## Sitemaps - [XML Sitemap](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/sitemap.xml): Contains all public & indexable URLs for this website. ## Posts - [Did you miss me?](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/embarrassed-leaves-vomit) - The leaves I’m leaning over right now are the same colour as the vomit I’ve donated into the drain beside them. I laugh quietly, internally. Why am I thinking about leaves? Colours? Vomit? Why am I not even slightly anxious about the strangers watching me, possibly worrying about me, wondering if I’m ok or if - [Alive and Kicking](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/alive-and-kicking_choose-your-narrative_cancer) - I am going to add an interpretation to this event in my mind. A helpful, healthy interpretation. We can do that, we humans. Our minds do it all the time. We often add a narrative, meaning or attribution to an event that is negative, unhelpful and unhealthy. When we do, pain and suffering soon follow. Alternatively, we can also add helpful, wonderful, healthy, inspiring, enjoyable narratives to events, circumstances, thoughts, feelings and sensations. These can help us feel and create pleasure, celebration and hope. - [56 days slow and bald](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/56-days-slow-and-bald) - 56 days since my stem cell transplant (SCT). I’ve now been home for the same amount of time that I was in hospital, 4 weeks. Hospital seems like a year ago. Life can be summed up by two words; SLOW and PATIENCE. I’ve been slow before (when temporarily injured or after a knee op or - [Escape after SCT and E.Coli](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/escape-after-sct-and-e-coli) - Escape! I’m out of hospital. I burst into tears on leaving. Overwhelmed with a sense of freedom and loss. Loss of four weeks of my life and being in the world. Last night was my first night at home since June 27th. Twenty-six nights in one small poorly ventilated over heated room. Up until this - [Coronavirus, It’s time we talked.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/coronavirus-its-time-we-talked) - You are a bit of bitch really aren’t you? Very clever. Coronavirus, Covid19 or whatever you are calling yourself, you’ve sent the world in to a tail spin. You’ve made it even harder for those with less and caused loss, grief, fear and stress to many. You’ve caused economic chaos just when the country’s debt - [Emotional Landscapes and Random Thoughts](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/emotional-landscapes-and-random-thoughts) - I listened to an interview with best-selling author Marion Keyes today and she talked about writing emotional landscapes. This is a wonderful phrase; it captures the many random thoughts I have about life, being human, living with cancer, with chemo, with uncertainty. Random thoughts, the theme for this blog, a collection of moments from the - [Diagnosis and Baby N](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/diagnosis-and-baby-n) - Oh sh*t, what if our new nephew, baby N arrives on the same day I get diagnosed? Hubby and I agreed that would be awful! My follow up appointment was booked for Friday 10th Feb and we willed the Universe that our Sister-in-law gave birth before then or after then. Any day EXCEPT diagnosis day! - [Treatment – We need to know NOW.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/treatment-we-need-to-know-now) - Most people take more time over choosing a new sofa or hairstyle than I was given to decide on my treatment pathway for Myeloma Cancer. There was no time to waste; my back vertebrae were in danger of fracturing and causing cord compression so treatment needed to start asap. I seal my fate within the - [Preliminary diagnosis and she who stares.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/preliminary-diagnosis-and-she-who-stares) - Have you ever received one of those letters from a GP saying: “we have received the results of your blood test. Please call xxx xxx xxxx to book a telephone appointment with the doctor regarding the result. This is NOT URGENT.”? Well, I have had a couple of these and they’ve never turned out - [I’ve been dying to go so as I’m dying, I’m going.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/ive-been-dying-to-go-so-as-im-dying-im-going) - I’mmmmm back! When I left you last, Mum was in recovery from breast cancer and Dad’s melanoma was kicking him in the groin (literally). They are amazing people, and fortunately for me they coped and are coping incredibly well with the challenges. Apparently this wasn’t enough to contend with, a trifecta was called for though - [Hedgehogs at a rave](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/hedgehogs-at-a-rave) - Peripheral neuropathy. A fancy pants way of saying pins and needles. Except it is a bit more than that and the more, is scary. When tingling on the soles of my feet and in my hands turned to prickles and cried out for attention, I had just started my 14th cycle of chemo. At night, - [Silent Dominos](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/silent-dominos) - Hello you. Is anybody out there? Sorry I have been so silent for so long; it’s been a heck of a hard eight months. That’s not to say there haven’t been some good times, some great times, times I’ve felt adventurous, happy, even peaceful. There have though, been times when I’ve thought this is just - [Tears on a plane](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tears-on-a-plane) - Saying goodbye to anyone you love is tough. Saying goodbye to my parents is very very tough. It hits me differently every time.I’m not a call every day girl or live close by girl and never have been; maybe this is the downside of our family’s emphasis on resilience and independence? Anyway, it just worked - [Brolly Boo Hoo](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/brolly-boo-hoo) - Ahoy there…you may think I’ve been on some desert island and that accounts for my lack of communication. You’d be right. I’ve been in a world full of ‘I should blog’ and ‘I am blogging, it’s just that it’s in my head or on a random note, emailed to myself.’ That’s the funny thing about - [Isoflavones. Icecreams? No, for Menopause. What?](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/isoflavones-menopause-hrt_alternatives) - The Tor and sheep’s poo The stone of the Glastonbury Tor holds the sun’s warmth and shares it with my back. I duck out of the wind, soak in the fabulous views of the Salisbury plains and reflect on the last year and half since diagnosis with Myeloma. Deep breaths of fresh air (fused with - [HRT v no HRT. One of many Menopause & Cancer standoffs.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/hrt-menopause-cancer-standoffs) - Boobs I flashed my boobs to three women I barely know today. Actually, it was less of a flash and more of mid-term exposure. Sometimes I wonder if I have no dignity left or if an automatic behaviour kicks in; be matter of fact and ‘get on with it’. The women (a care assistant, chemo - [48](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/48-2) - What a year! I turned 48, I was diagnosed with cancer and I’ve completed 48 chemo sessions. I love the number 48; it seems so symmetrical to me (I love a bit of symmetry). Now ‘48’ has a WHOLE new world of associations! Warning…I have happy news, and, I’m going to talk about toilet rituals. - [Hot to Trot. NOT.  It’s Menopause.  Men, this is for you too.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/menopause-part1) - A fire has started at the bottom of my ribs. It caught hold in an instant. Creeping upwards, slowly at first but I know what’s coming…it’s picking up pace…then whoosh; my chest, head, face and whole body is washed with heat. Fever type heat, taking over the lymph nodes, my forehead, my entire skin. All - [My veins fear needles!](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/veins-fear-needles) - My veins are not playing ball. According to one Nurse they are spidery, superficial and collapse as soon as a needle comes near them. This is the accumulation effect of the Carfilzomib drug and not unexpected. I had hoped this side-effect may take a bit longer to kick in but hey I want the drug - [Your Question 1 - What is the difference between Myeloma, Leukemia and Lymphoma?](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/myeloma-leukemia-lymphoma) - A cracking question A cracking question and one that had crossed my mind when I first started learning about Myeloma. Most of us have heard of Leukemia, or know someone who has requested donations for a fun run they are doing in the name of a charity, supporting people living with Leukemia or sponsoring Leukemia - [Chemo Wk 1 – Part 1 - Janine on Johnnies](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-wk-1-part-1-janine-on-johnnies) - Format for the update posts: I plan to stick to a similar format each time for these update posts so you can find your way around easily. The core aim is to let people know how I’m doing as the treatment for Myeloma unfolds, to talk about key medical milestones, challenges experienced and whether it - [The Hardest Thing](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/the-hardest-thing) - Informing your parents on your 48th birthday that you have blood and bone cancer is not a common or pleasant thing to do. In fact, it has been the hardest thing to do in this whole journey so far: let family and friends know, see and hear their pain, their sadness, their shock. Sharing my - [Tests - Radioactive, Angle Grinders and All Heart](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tests-radioactive-angle-grinders-and-all-heart) - The last ten days have been a whirlwind of hospital appointments, even on a Sunday (and people moan about the NHS!). A bone marrow biopsy, a comedic event with four people in a tiny room, a lot of over-heating, Simon nearly fainting, the student nurse almost fainting, the blood aspiration having to be done twice, - [Before Diagnosis and Special](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/beforediagnosis_myelomacancer) - I’ve always liked to be special but this is taking it a bit far. 4800 people are diagnosed with Myeloma every year in the UK and now I’m one of them. I didn’t think I’d be saying that. Well, actually, I did think I’d end up with cancer at some stage; most people do eventually - [Pulling my hair out](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/pulling-my-hair-out) - I’d be pulling my hair out over the steroid incident (see last post) or I would be, if it wasn’t falling out, on its own accord. I’d be pulling my hair out over this week’s incident: a miscommunication between the Clinical Trial team and the Lab that makes up my chemo drugs resulting in me - [Mistake. Give me my steroids, NOW!](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/mistake_give_me_my_steroids) - Sick as a dog, thank you Chemo. I am meant to be on top form tomorrow. It’s hubby’s very special birthday and we have a full day of fun planned. Thanks, thanks a million for deciding to be ‘a bad Chemo’ day. Team, my wonderful team, I feel let down. There has been a mistake. - [Arnie and Self Sizing](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/arnie-self-sizing) - Dr L turned to his colleague and said, ‘for someone with Myeloma, Janine’s immune system is a Schwarzenegger’. Hey Arnie, you are now a metaphor for my health status. Who’d have thought?! It sounds so positive and I am very grateful that my precious physical self is coping so well with the toxicity of Chemo. - [A year ago](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/a-year-ago) - A year ago, test results confirmed the specialist suspicions; I have terminal cancer, Multiple Myeloma. There is no cure. A year ago. Already. The last year has flown by. Three 2017 dates are now seared into my mind; January 30th, February 10th and my 48th Birthday. A whirlwind of the new; hospital visits, medical terms - [Shapeshifter and Thank you](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/shapeshifter-and-thank-you) - Boo! Did I change career over the last month of 2017, become a lead actor in a thriller? This thing keeps creeping up from behind me, above me, beside me, from below, yelling BOO! It sends my cortisol levels sky high, makes my heart pound and brain race. I’ll be tidying, reading, sitting, walking down - [Hey Mr Tumour, I want a word with you.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/hey-mr-tumour) - OK Mr Tumour or more accurately Messrs Tumours. Listen up. Yep, all four of you. You know who you are. You are hanging around unwanted and uninvited. Where do you get off thinking its ok to be dossing about in my body? You’re a greedy bunch, aren’t you? Not contented with one spot, you hunker down - [On Track with Five Minutes](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/back-track-five-minutes) - Last week and this week have been soooo much better. Less tears. While the black cloud of overwhelm still lurks, I feel calmer, less irritated by everything, and more able to make a healthy choice in the moment. Five minutes, have been my saviour. I’m no perfect human, no magician. Getting back on track isn’t - [Vampires, Angels and Twiki](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/vampires-angels-twiki) - My blood spurts everywhere like a regular Fright Night or Halloween movie. The nurse is trying to put a cannula into each arm, a bloody big cannula, much bigger than my normal (ha ha) Chemo cannula. The nurse is new to this treatment and seriously nervous. Great. I’m not in the mood today. The mood. - [Falling off](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/falling-off) - Hello Blog. I’ve missed you. I’ve been writing to you, in my head, a lot. There have been many opening paragraphs that have never made it to fingers and keyboard. Today is a beautiful day, helped along immeasurably by clear blue sky. Today is the day I put the last month to bed, put it - [Chemo Cycle Four - Brain on Fire](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-cycle-four-brain-fire) - I’m going to be sick. I’m running to the bathroom. I’m not going to make it. I’m scanning for basins and thinking use the kitchen if I can’t make it to the bathroom. At least make it to the tiles, it will be easier to clean up. I make it, this time. While I’m trying - [Generosity and its foibles](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/generosity-and-its-foibles) - I have learned a lot about generosity over the last few months. Generosity is something I now realise I have made difficult for others at times and I have not always felt comfortable, when in receipt of it. Generosity can be a strange thing. It can feel like receiving a compliment: pleasant, appreciated yet also - [Who knew Cancer cost so much?](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/knew-cancer-cost-much) - It may not be very British but I’m going to talk about money. When this Myeloma journey started, my hubby and I immediately obsessed and worried about money, about what a cancer diagnosis could do to us, and how much treatment would cost. I was disappointed, ashamed and annoyed to discover my NZ life term - [Green Poo and Ham](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/green-poo-ham) - I am vegetable. Literally. I am consuming so many of them and have lost weight (under 65kg) either through this crazy new diet and/ or the Chemo, that what is left of me has re-constituted itself. I swear it! Green goes in and green comes out (sorry). I collect sunshine where I can. I am - [Chemo Cycle Three – Great News](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-cycle-three-great-news) - I bopped down the hospital corridor towards the Chemo Unit (listening to a bit of Adele) and started thinking back over this cycle of treatment. It's not a good or bad news story. It's a GREAT news story. Yes, there are a few side lines about niggly things, just to keep it real. Great news - [Killing me with kindness](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/killing-me-with-kindness) - It happened again today. Someone said the wrong thing. They didn’t mean to. They just didn’t seem to think. In that moment, it seemed that it was important for them to say what they wanted to say, so they said it. Important to them, not me; about them, not me. I’m sure they didn’t mean - [Why Me? Changing My Terrain.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/why-me-changing-my-terrain) - Causes, Choices, Control and Change. Now that I have circumnavigated the first two months of treatment, with a focus on doing what had to be done, I notice the question of ‘Why Me?’ popping into my head more often. I think about causes, choices, control, and change. What caused my Myeloma? Why Myeloma and not - [Chemo Month Two – Worry](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-month-two-worry) - It's been hard to write the blog in week’s four, five and six of Chemo; I didn't know where to start, there didn't seem to be time, and I was worrying. Even Music didn’t show up much; I didn’t hear it or go looking for it – strange. I started to worry about having little - [Elk-ibou on the Corner of Fox and Cougar.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/elk-ibou-on-the-corner-of-fox-and-cougar) - Music: Jump Around by House of Pain, Got Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5, Funky Town Gangsta’s Paradise by Coolio, Gin and Juice by Snoop Dogg, Whatta Man by Salt’N’ Pepa (1994!!!). Many many great tracks from the past, particularly hip hop played at the end of the ski/sightseeing day, on the way down - [Over 1000 in 50 days](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/1000-50-days) - Aside from the Chemo, my body has consumed at least 534 medications and 825 supplements in the last 50 days....1359 pills in all. I visited a well know artist with a gallery in South London. I tried to have an open mind but still came away not liking the art! I did discover the gallery - [Chemo Wk 1 – Part 2 – Piss Taker and Junkie](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-wk-1-part-2-piss-taker-and-junkie) - Medical Update: FISH test - Myeloma cytogenetic analysis is an examination of the bone marrow cells to look for chromosome abnormalities. It can be an indicator of likely worse response to treatment and lower life expectancy. My result: NORMAL (YIPPEEEEEEE!!!) More low down: Who knew cancer could be fun? Yes, it’s a whirlwind and - [Pain](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/pain) - So now you show up. Its 3.30am. I’ve only had three and half hours sleep and now you have woken me. Why now Pain? Where were you before? Where were you when I was meant to have known you, during this stage one of illness that I seemed to have skipped? Are you Myeloma pain - [Chemo Wk 2 - I thought I had it handled. I didn’t.](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-wk-2-i-thought-i-had-it-handled-i-didnt) - Music: Where is the love (Black eyed peas), Beautiful (Christine Aguilera) Living On a prayer Bon Jovi, Me - I'm killing killing cancer, sorry good cells Medical Update: Full dose Chemo started (only half last week) Glucose test: 'Brilliant' according to Dr L; normal=awesome pancreas Dr L's comment 'I'm very happy' with the way things - [Chemo Wk 3 - Bloody Business](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/chemo-wk-3-bloody-business) - Music: Fat Boy Slim – Where You Iz (Where you is, is where it’s at, and you can’t beat that with a baseball bat); Far L’amore (awesome dance track from the film The Great Beauty), VCMG Spock. Medical Update: Full dose Chemo plus new drug by intravenous Zometa (bone builder) Follow up e-Coli urine test ## Pages - [Psychological Tips](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/psychological-tips) - The tips and resources are in the blog posts at the moment (especially the posts from 2017). At some stage I'll dig them out of each post and list them all here, under easy to use headings. In the mean time, please do enjoy the blog and have a delve around for the psychology tips! - [Helpful Links](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/helpful-links) - Do you need wellbeing support? Do you need help to process a trauma of any sort including the diagnosis and treatment involved with cancer? Are you someone impacted by cancer or chronic illness directly or indirectly? Are you looking for a highly qualified, safe, experienced Clinical Psychologist? Then, contact ComposurePsychology. The team at - [About Me](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/about-me) - Hi. I'm Janine. I have terminal cancer. I LOVE LIVING. I'm also Dr Janine Hayward, Chartered Clinical Psychologist. I love helping people develop their psychological flexibility, resilience and to get the most out of their lives. A bit about me: A British New Zealander based in London, United Kingdom, I am married, addicted to - [Contact Me](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/contact-me) - [Privacy Policy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/privacy-policy) - Psyching Out Cancer http://www.psychingoutcancer.com/ Your privacy is very important to us. At Psyching Out Cancer we have a few fundamental principles that we follow: We don’t ask you for personal information unless we truly need it. (We can’t stand services that ask you for things like your gender or income level for no apparent reason.) - [Aim of the Blog](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/aim-of-the-blog) - Some might say this blog has a ‘split personality’. Though I wouldn’t say that. On one hand, the blog has been set up for selfish reasons; to provide quick, easy updates to my loved ones and anyone else who may wish to know, how I’m getting on from week to week, including my medical status, - [Archives](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/archives) ## Categories - [Uncategorized](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/uncategorized) - [Nutrition for Cancer](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/nutrition_for_cancer) - Nutrition stories, strategies, evidence and resources for; during Cancer and Chemotherapy treatment, during Remission and for prevention of Cancer. - [Pre Diagnosis](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/pre_diagnosis) - Stories and updates about suspecting something was wrong, trying to be heard and believed, and seeking help - [Chemotherapy for Myeloma](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/myeloma_treatment/chemotherapy_for_myeloma) - Chemotherapy and Clinical Trial experience during treatment for Myeloma - [Myeloma Treatment](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/myeloma_treatment) - Stories and Posts about Making Treatment Decisions and Receiving Treatment for Myeloma - [Diagnosis](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/diagnosis) - Posts and Stories about Assessment, Diagnostic tests such as MRI, Pet Scan, Bone Marrow Biopsy, Echocardiogram and Blood tests and ultimate Diagnosis - [Psychology for Cancer](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/psychology_for_cancer) - Psychology strategies, theories, resources and examples of practical application that I and others have found useful when living with; Myeloma, cancer, cancer treatment, treatment side effects, and prognoses of shortened life span. - [Your Questions](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/your_questions) - Posts and Stories endeavouring to handle the questions you have asked about all aspects of Myeloma; the facts, what it is like to live with, what treatment is like, how do I and others cope, how can friends and family help. Any and all questions are welcomed and will answered where possible. - [Symptoms and Side Effects](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/symptoms-side-effects) - Stories and posts about experiences with symptoms of Myeloma, treatment side effects and coping strategies tried. - [Pain](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/symptoms-side-effects/pain) - [Finance and Cost](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/finance-and-cost) - [Results](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/myeloma_treatment/results) - [Menopause](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/menopause) - [Cancer in my family](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/cancer-in-my-family) - [peripheral neuropathy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/symptoms-side-effects/peripheral-neuropathy) - [Covid](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/covid) - [Stem Cell Transplant SCT](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/myeloma_treatment/stem-cell-transplant-sct) - [Blood Clots](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/category/symptoms-side-effects/blood-clots) - 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[PICC Line](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/picc-line) - [Ultrasound](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/ultrasound) - [Medication](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/medication) - [Pills](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/pills) - [Vitamins](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/vitamins) - [Supplements](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/supplements) - [Worry](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/worry) - [Terrain](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/terrain) - [Change](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/change) - [Cause](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/cause) - [Control](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/control) - [Choice](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/choice) - [Nutrition](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/nutrition) - [Lifestyle](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/lifestyle) - [Mobile](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/mobile) - [Why Me](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/why-me) - [scared](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/scared) - 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[Thank you](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/thank-you) - [Biopsy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/biopsy) - [Good News](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/good-news) - [a year ago](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/a-year-ago) - [clothes](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/clothes) - [muscles](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/muscles) - [Jaguar](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/jaguar) - [Cat](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/cat) - [Umbrella](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/umbrella) - [Bread](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/bread) - [Wheat](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/wheat) - [Gluten](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/gluten) - [Toxins](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/toxins) - [Sweats](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/sweats) - [Steroids](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/steroids) - [Frustration](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/frustration) - [Tears](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/tears) - [Mistakes](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/mistakes) - [Mistake](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/mistake) - [Consequences](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/consequences) - [Hair](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hair) - [Hair loss](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hair-loss) - [Receding hairline](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/receding-hairline) - [Sticky eyelids](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/sticky-eyelids) - [Trichotillomania](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/trichotillomania) - [Alopecia](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/alopecia) - [Alopecia areata](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/alopecia-areata) - [Menopause](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/menopause) - [HRT](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hrt) - [Hormone Replacement Therapy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hormone-replacement-therapy) - [Breast Cancer](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/breast-cancer) - [Tinnitus](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/tinnitus) - [estrogen](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/estrogen) - [oestrogen](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/oestrogen) - [phytoestrogen](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/phytoestrogen) - [bioidentical](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/bioidentical) - [hormones](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hormones) - [Promensil](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/promensil) - [Complimentary therapies](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/complimentary-therapies) - [Alternatives to HRT](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/alternatives-to-hrt) - [Black Cohosh](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/black-cohosh) - [Ginseng](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/ginseng) - [SSRI](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/ssri) - [Isoflavones](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/isoflavones) - [Red Clover](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/red-clover) - [Vitamin E](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/vitamin-e) - [Calcium](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/calcium) - [Vitamin D](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/vitamin-d) - [Vitamin B](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/vitamin-b) - [Zinc](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/zinc) - [Chinese Medicine](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/chinese-medicine) - [Soy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/soy) - [Carer](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/carer) - [Melanoma](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/melanoma) - [Goodbye](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/goodbye) - [New Normal](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/new-normal) - [Troll](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/troll) - [Mother](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/mother) - [peripheral neuropathy](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/peripheral-neuropathy) - [pins and needles](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/pins-and-needles) - [hands](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/hands) - [feet](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/feet) - [Positivity](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/positivity) - [Patient choice](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/patient-choice) - [Dying](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/dying) - [Velcade](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/velcade) - [Thalidomide](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/thalidomide) - [Steroid](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/steroid) - [Christmas](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/christmas) - [Repurposed](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/repurposed) - [Drugs](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/drugs) - [Fenbendazole](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/fenbendazole) - [Dog Wormer](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/dog-wormer) - [House Music](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/house-music) - [Covid19](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/covid19) - [Coronavirus](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/coronavirus) - [Covid](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/covid) - [Lockdown](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/lockdown) - [Yoga](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/yoga) - [Virus](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/virus) - [Blood Clot](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/blood-clot) - [Mucositis](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/mucositis) - [Recovery](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/recovery) - [Immunosuppressed](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/immunosuppressed) - [Metabolism](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/metabolism) - [Metabolic Pathways](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/metabolic-pathways) - [Tumour Microenvironment](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/tumour-microenvironment) - [RIchLife](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/richlife) - [DVD](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/dvd) - [Daratumumab](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/daratumumab) - [Bortezomib (Velcade)](https://www.psychingoutcancer.com/tag/bortezomib-velcade)